By: Karen Kingsbury
"Long ago you came to me, a miracle of firsts:
First smiles and teeth and baby steps, a sunbeam on the burst.
But one day you will move away and leave to me your past,
And I will be left thinking of a lifetime of your lasts.
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The last time that I held a bottle to your baby lips.
The last time that I lifted you and held you on my hip.
The last time when you woke up crying needing to walked.
When last you crawled up with your blanket, wanting to be rocked.
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The last time that you ran to me still small enough to hold,
The last time when you said you'd marry me when you grew old.
Precious, simple moments and bright flashes from the past -
Would I have held you longer if I'd known they were the last?
~~~~~
Our last adventure to the park, your final midday nap,
The last time when you wore your favorite faded baseball cap.
Your last few hours of kindergarten, last days of first grade,
Your last at bat in Little League, last colored picture made.
~~~~~
I never said goodbye to all your yesterdays long past.
So what about tomorrow -- will I recognize your lasts?
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The last time that you catch a frog in that old backyard pond.
The last time that you run barefoot across our fresh-cut lawn.
Silly, scattered images will represent your past.
I keep on taking pictures, never quite sure of your lasts...
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The last time that I comb your hair or stop a pillow fight.
The last that I pray with you and tuck you in at night.
The last time that we cuddle with a book, just me and you.
The last time you jump in our bed and sleep between us two.
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The last piano lesson, last vacation to the lake.
Your last few weeks of middle school, last soccer goal you make.
I look ahead and dream of days that haven't come to pass.
But as I do, I sometimes miss today's sweet, precious lasts...
~~~~~
The last time that I help you with a math or spelling test.
The last when I should that yes, your room is still a mess.
The last time that you need me for a ride from here to there.
The last time that you spend the night with your old tattered bear.
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My life keeps moving faster, stealing precious days that pass.
I want to hold on longer -- want to recognize your lasts...
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The last time that you need my help with details of a dance.
The last time that you ask me for advice about romance.
The last time that you talk to me about your hopes and dreams.
The last time that you wear a jersey for your high school team.
~~~~~
I've watched you grow and barely noticed seasons as they pass.
If I could freeze the hands of time, I'd hold on to your lasts.
For come some bright fall morning you'll be going far away.
College life will beckon in a brilliant sort of way.
~~~~~
One last hug, one last good-bye, one quick and hurried kiss.
One last time to understand just how much you will be missed.
I'll watch you leave and think how fast our times together passed.
Let me hold on longer God, to every precious last.








7 comments:
I was crying by the second paragraph and definately sobbing by the end. This was great, and I think about this often with my 4 kiddos. I am glad K seems to be doing much better.
I can't even read the whole thing. I'm crying in the first few lines. And I'm trying to have a tear-free day! :)
Hi Renee!
Thankyou for your Anniversary wishes..I always read your blog as you know :) I am not sure why I have never left a comment..Kennedy is always in my prayers..she's an amazing little girlie!! You are an amazing Mom and your hubby what an awesome guy to serve our counrty!! All your kiddos are adorable :)
Man that book is a tear jerker. When my daughter graduated from pre-k they made the Mom's stand behind their kiddos while they read that book. It was one big cry fest for sure. It is so true they grow too fast!! have a great week. I promise I will comment from now on too :)
This is so true.....experienced this myself just last fall. Our baby girl left for college and now will turn 20 on Tuesday..no longer a teenager. Seems like only yesterday she was that little bundle of joy! Thanks for sharing, and yes, the tears are flowing.
Ooooh Man...I'm really suppose to be working but now I'm sitting here crying! Isn't it amazing though how God gave us firsts and lasts..and as we get older we have "lasts" with our loved ones as they grow old and pass away...but He also gave us the promise that we will all be together again for eternity and we'll have many "firsts" again together!
Your Mom
HELLO!! Where was the tissue warning!! OMG my pregnant hormones...
Just back from vacation and catching up on your blog . . .
I can hardly stand reading this!!! I am so feeling this stuff right now! Aleena is napping right now - when I left her room, I looked at her long legs. I looked at how she fills her bed. I looked at a little girl. No longer a baby. No longer a toddler. And I can't get it back. It gives me a knot in my stomach.
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