Thursday, March 5, 2009

I'm 30.

I refuse to be in denial. Much. I'm 30. So what does that mean? When I fill out forms and they ask me my age group, I can no longer say I'm in my 20's. When people ask my age, they will no longer say, "Oh you're SO young!" But really, am I any different than yesterday? Another day older... probably not any wiser... my face hasn't caved in and gray hairs haven't overtaken my head. I haven't shriveled away into nothingness, so maybe, just maybe, 30 will be ok.

I've now been here on this earth for 3 decades. In that time I have cried a million tears, laughed a million laughs, given and received a million hugs and kisses, and learned I am inexplicably and unconditionally loved by my family, close friends, my husband, my children and most importantly my Jesus.

I've given birth to 4 of the most amazing children on earth and through them have met hundreds of people I never would have otherwise met. I live in a place I never would have dreamed of living and I love it. I am about to travel to a country I never thought I would visit to bring home a daughter I never thought I would have.

Looking back on the path I've taken and looking forward to the path I'm traveling, I can see God's hand in every event in my life. I can see where He worked even when I did not make the choices He would have liked me to make. And while I can see where I should have made different decisions at certain crossroads, I know that if I had, they would not have led to me being here. Right now. 30 years old, married for 1/3 of my life, mom to 4 (almost 5) children, trying to bring awareness to Down syndrome, childhood cancer and adoption.

When I look at it that way, 30 is not so bad. Right? Right. So that's me now. My name is Renee and I'm in my 30's. Someone give me a form to fill out.

48 comments :

Kristal said...

Happy Birthday

Relevant Student Ministry said...

happy birthday! honestly, 30 is GREAT...enjoy the day and welcome to the 30's

Later!
Michael

www.michaelbayne.net

Meg said...

Happy Birthday!!!!

Joy said...

Happy Birthday Renee! And welcome to the club! 30 isn't bad! I loved turning 30.
Today is Katie's birthday too. She's 7!
Enjoy your day!

Lacia said...

Happy Birthday Renee!!! 30 isn't so bad. What I found sucked was the forms where you fill out your age bracket. There's the 18-35 age bracket, and then the 36 - something higher that I can't remember. I am no longer in the 18-35 category, and I"m getting too close to 40 for my liking!!!

Jeri said...

Renee-Happy Birthday!! You will ove the 30's. I am 36 and finally I have realized that I don't have to wear the right clothes or be the right size to be accepted. I don't have to hang out with the right crowd and on and on. I have reach the age or point where it doesn't matter as long as I'm happy. You will have a blast. It's not the end of the world. You have so much more to do. Remember it's just a number and doesn't mean a thing.

Courtney said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! 30 is sooo young! No seriously, it really is! CONGRATS, and enjoy the thirties!!!

Googsmom said...

Happy Birthday Renee!!!

Courtney said...

I love it! I hated turning 30, but I remember a few months in, I started to really enjoy it. It's been just over four years, and I still love it. It feels like an accomplishment. I feel proud to say I am in my 30's! I am glad you're feeling that pride now, too!

Happy Birthday!!!

Lacey said...

Happy birthday. I hated turning 30 I felt so old and was in denial for a good 6 months.

Susan said...

Renee
Happy Birthday!! I am 37 and I have to tell you that while I loved my twenties- my thirties have been even better! You are still very young. :) I'm edging toward 40 so I can say that about some one who just turned 30. Look at all the amazing things you've done in your twenties- the thirties are just another decade to continue on with that- a little wiser. :)

Ann said...

Happy Birthday! Hope you have a great one. And please in a few years when I'm whining about turning 30 will you remind me how gracefully you turned 30!

Mary said...

Ya turning 30 was not fun or easy for me to accept. My 20's were way easier to digest and they were still an acceptable reason for my silly ways.. but in my 30's I still have my silly ways I just don't claim how old I am! :) Although I still have one thing under my belt.. I still get offered kids menues... even when I was 8 months pregnant!! Hated that when I was a teenager... LOVE IT now that I am in my 30's.

Wendy said...

Oh, now I am so getting why you can keep up with 4 (almost 5) and I can barely keep up with 3. It is because you are a brand-new 30 (Congrats!) and I am two months away from 44. Gasp!

This reminds me of another reason I love the blogging world. So glad you became my friend, even though I'm far from my 20s.

Cross Campus Ministry said...

Ill be thirty next year, it's somewhat exciting
Mike
crosscampusministry.com

amanda said...

happy birthday. my oldest is four today. i'm in denial about that. i no longer have four toddlers. i have a pre-k-er and three toddlers. what?!

Jenn said...

Happy Birthday !

JennyH said...

Happy birthday. I just turned 32 last month. 32! How did I get so old? You will still be told your young- usually when you are without kids climbing all over you. I got carded for buying 'POPS' around new years. You know, the things you throw on the ground and they 'pop.' I had no kids with me at the time and the lady went on and on about how young I looked, blah, blah, blah. SO maybe to realize 30 is not so bad, try buying something that requires ID and go without kids!

brandi said...

so far I LOVE my thirties :) My only wish is that I would of had more children but God needed them more! Hope you enjoy your thirties as much as I have so far!

Carey said...

Happy Birthday! Here's to an even more amazing 30 years, maybe a little less drama, but amazing nonetheless!

And FYI, gray hairs have overtaken my head ... and I'm still okay. That's what hair color is for!

Wendy said...

I posted about your cruise and Jacob's I-Pod Touch raffles, but couldn't seem to transfer the buttons so they would appear. Not enough time this morning to investigate, but must learn how to do that (pictures add such a compelling element).

Jacki said...

Happy Birthday!
God has blessed you so much in your first 30 years! You really are an inspiration to me, as well as many many others! It just gets better from here! You get to set back and watch the fruits of your labor grow! You get more comfortable in your own skin, and you appreciate the small things more! Here's to many many more!

Kristen said...

First, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I plan to call later like the rest of the world! LOL!

Second, YOU have done a tremendous amount of work in your 30 years! Quite the impact, if I do say so myself! Just think of what work you can and will continue to do.

Praise God that He has you on His side!

Army Wife and Mom said...

hey you happy birthday.... i turned 31 on tues i never knew our bdays were so close!!!

JRS said...

Happy Birthday Renee. 30 is a cake walk. Enjoy your day.
---Jen

MamasHood said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! From where I am standing, you make 30 look beautiful and rewarding. Can't wait!

Lucie said...

Welcome to the club! it really does
get better- I will be 44 this year-
every decade is better then the
last-
My oldest is off to university in
the fall-
Now that is a major change!
Enjoy- I wish I had a form to send you!

Michelle said...

Sorry I missed your birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I know, I turned 30 in September and I sat there and contemplated what that really meant for me. Like you, I decided that I was glad that I have accomplished what I have and excited to see what would happen next! Thirty isn't so bad! It's really the new 20 right?!?! lol

Lisa Turner said...

Happy Birthday Renee! Congratulations on turning 30! I will be 40 in just a couple of months, and I am not looking forward to it....at all! My thirties were the best years of my life! I hope your day is filled with lots of fun and many surprises!

Anonymous said...

I would sing you the "Happy Birthday" song..but that would take to long to write....so, I'll just sing the ending....HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUU!

What did the kiddos give yeah..let's see: a million more hugs/kisses/ happy berfday mommy..and many more! so Happy Birthday Mrs. Renee!

love,
rachel b

manuelsmommy said...

Happy Birthday!!!!!!

Shylo said...

Happy Birthday Renee!!!!

Crystal said...

Happy birthday! I look forward to being 30.. but I think I will have a 30th birthday many times after that lol..

Shari said...

Happy Birthday to one of the sweetest 'bloggy' people I know! 30 is great! I will be 40 this year! It doesn't feel like it though! ;]

Erika said...

Happy Birthday! =)

mom2natnkatncj said...

Welcome to the club! You're only a few months behind me ;). You know when I turned 15 my mom said to me you're halfway to 30. The thought of that was unbelievable. Then in November I turned 30 and Natalie (who knew the story of what my mom said to me at 15) told me now I'm halfway to 60. Can you imagine? Okay, at least that's a longer way off than 30 was. And 30 is the new 20 isn't it? I think you'll still get the oh you're so young ;). I still do. And believe me when I say I was not as accepting of being 30. For the first week or so I was 29 + 1 ;).

Holly said...

Happy birthday! I hope you have an awesome day!

Tess said...

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY RENEE!!! i'm sure you were spoilt rotten!!
30 is the easy part, wait until your 50 GULP...lol..

Melissa @ Banana Migraine said...

Happy Birthday! Enjoy your 30's - they are fun :)

Marsha :o) said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

I am 31 and where I work, I am the baby of the group. We had a conversation the other day and it was discovered that there are only 4 (at the most) people younger then me...and there are probably 100 people that work at Youth Challenge! I love being in my 30s and still "the baby". In fact, one of my coworkers said today that his twins were turning 28 this month. I just looked at him and said, "OMG, you could be my dad!" And, btw, not one of the people I work with looks as old as they are (95% of them are retired military it that gives you an idea of how old they are.) The 30s are great...its being 20 with a decade of experience!

Lu (Lucille) said...

Happy Birthday! Wow! 30! I guess you could just um... not admit it ever he he!

I hope you have a wonderful day! Enjoy your new decade! :)

Sherry said...

Happy Birthday. I hadn't looked at it like you but just realized... I am 42, married 1/2 my life and am still learning things you've already figured out. I think you've had a good 30 years so far. :) Enjoying your blog and looking forward to 30 more years (and then some).

Sherry

Lynn said...

SO? How was your birthday?!!!!!!!!!!!
Continuing to lift your family up in prayer!
Philippians 4:8-9 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.
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Rebecca said...

Well said! I hope I can be that gracious about it, lo, six months hence. :)

Jennifer said...

Happy Birthday!

Mami said...

30 es una edad interesante...:).. eres todavía joven, pero con experiencia y sabiduría adquirida... lo mejor de todo es que tienes una linda familia y eres una hija predilecta de Dios..Disfruta!! :)

Michelle said...

happy belated birthday to you! and nah, 30s isn't bad...I've been there for the past 5 yrs, although I say I'm just celebrating the anniversary of my 29th birthday LOL

marlene said...

HAPPY (belated) 30TH BIRTHDAY, RENEE!!!!!!!!! :)