Friday, December 14, 2012

Monsters are Real...

I am sitting here in tears watching the news reports roll in about the massacre at Sandy Hook Elementary School. Right now the stories are still flying... Adam Lanza, the shooter, a young man in his early 20s walked into a Kindergarten classroom and started shooting after fighting with the principal. Ryan's mother is a teacher at this school and some of his victims were her students... Was his mother there this morning? What did she think when she saw her son walk in the doors of her classroom? What went through her mind when he pulled out a gun and aimed it at her students? Some reports say that entire classroom is unaccounted for. We do know that 18 children and 8 adults are dead and that number is rising.

As the mom of a Kindergartner, this is gutting me. I want nothing more to run to my children's schools and pick them up. I want to apologize for nagging them this morning to get their shoes on so we wouldn't be late. I want to make sure they KNOW, without a shadow of a doubt, that I love them more than anything in this whole world. I want to give them all their Christmas presents right now... because 18 children won't be opening theirs 11 days from now. And that breaks my heart.

Flashbacks of Columbine keep entering my mind... another day that I sat glued to my TV in tears, wondering how I could ever let my babies go out in this world and trust they would be safe. What if?? 

Many of our children are going to come home with questions about this shooting today. They will hear about it eventually... if not today at school, then maybe tonight on the news. What will you say when your Kindergartner asks you, "What if someone comes into MY school and starts shooting?" Sadly, we cannot assure them that will never happen. How do we calm their fears? How do we tell them that they are safe when we can't even be sure?

Here is a good article with some tips of how to talk to our kids... honestly, I don't know if anything I can say will ease my children's fears except that God is watching over us and He's taking care of us. And I know that because of that, we're not supposed to fear. But on days like today, I am reminded that monsters ARE real. They don't live in closets or under beds, but they go into movie theaters, and malls and schools and they shoot innocent people, forever changing the lives of so many families.

We are praying for the families of Sandy Hook Elementary... the families who are being reunited with their kids, and now have to calm their fears and help them deal with the aftermath of this tragedy, the families of the teachers and staff who have been killed... and especially the families of the students who are no longer here. Their lives were cut way too short in the most horrific way. The next several days, weeks and months as this tragedy unfolds is going to be heart wrenching for all of us, and we will be lifting you up in prayer and holding you close to our hearts.


7 comments :

Monicas Mom Musings said...

Thank you for this Renee. I don't know if I'm just too close to this. I haven't been able to write a blog. I kept looking at the picture I took of my kindergartner and 5th grader today with so much excitement in their eyes for the day and thinking it could have been them. Thinking about CJ's teacher and her classroom and someone coming in and looking at all of those sweet innocent faces and seeing monsters that deserved to be shot and killed. How do you see that? I don't know. It's just heartbreaking. Hug your babies extra tight today.

Emily said...

How awful! The article I read said he killed his mom before killing the others...

ourjoyfulljourney said...

i am in tears..all i can think of is my kids and keeping them safe from all of this..i know we can't..so i am thankful that this is not our home and one day we will not have to deal with all of this sadness and the monsters of this world. But for now, while we do live here on earth, i pray hard for the families, i cannot imagine losing my child in such a tragic way..my heart aches for them..may God cover them in the peace only He can give!

momof4as said...

Thank you Renee, we live in Newtown and to say we are in shock is not enough. My youngest two go to one of the other elementary schools in town and all are OK. My sister lives a couple blocks from where it happened, so she is here now and her kids and husband and her are probably staying with us tonight (her kids are OK too, they don't go to elementary school yet but if they did they would have been there). It's all so awful, still so few details, and this is only the first day. Thank you all for prayers.

Jen T. said...

My friend who works there has cancer and had a seizure in a classroom a couple of weeks ago and hasn't been in school since. She would've been in a meeting with the principal and psychologist when they were killed. How crazy that cancer may have SAVED her life yesterday!

My friend Jen was in the office 10 minutes before he came in dropping off her son's sneakers.

I'm in shock.

Lynn said...

And now we know that she didn't know what happened at all because she was already dead! So why take it out on the kids and other teachers/staff?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Endeavoring Mama said...

Today we spent nearly an hour discussing the factors involved and smoothing over fear in our kindergartener's heart. The media has been talking about the young man possibly having Aspergers and our little one was so worried that it meant, if he has it, then he will do something bad too. Just broke my heart. He even asked "What if I choose not to be bad? Will it work?" As if to say his differences would someday define him as a person or restrict his choices to do right. A very hard day, indeed.